The past couple of months I have been thinking about starting a more anonymous don't-tell-people-about-just-let-it-be-found blog. This is because there are things I would blog about, but, since moving to the Midwest, have found out that a lot of friends read this (although y'all read through your readers/feeds so I have no idea how many people read because my counter does not count reader downloads, but whatever;-) ). It is not that I would not share or discuss these things with my friends and family, but it just seems strange to do it in this format...and I am really bad about picking up the phone.
Some things I think about are old things which do not affect me anymore; only I still think about them so clearly something about them gets to me. Pre-internet I would keep a journal in spurts. If you go back and look at some of it, I always wrote when I was trying to figure something out. Along the way, my blog was a way for me to put something in writing (for the entire world to read if they would like, ironically), and let it go. I guess writing things down lets me move on to thinking about other things, and I know if I want to revisit something, it is there waiting for me. Everyone has their own ways of dealing with things, right?
Only once in grad school did I actually go to a therapist a few times to work through something that I could not get myself to go to family or friends about. I know people whose therapists are very important, and can only extrapolate that other friends likely see therapists but I do not know about it. It was a strange experience for me though. I do not expect a journal to talk back, but the woman I saw did not seem very involved in the sessions. Maybe I just needed a different therapist?
My old roommate (Hi SLK, like the car) told me once that if I was being really quiet around the apartment, she knew I was thinking about something, and I would talk to her when I was ready. It is true. And I think that when I am thinking about something, I am usually figuring out how to articulate whatever it is, much like I would have to do to write it down in a journal. Now, I find myself composing blog posts about things in my head. Sad, huh? Maybe after I "write" one, I should just write it down and move on to the next thing.
4 comments:
A blog is what you make it. If you need a more private one then that is what you should do, especially if you have a lot of "Real Life" people on your regular blog.
I'm right there with ya jenny...still trying to figure out why I feel compelled to blog at all if I am just going to censor myself!
Sometimes I also think about starting a more anonymous blog. Even though my real-life identity isn't available on my current blog, quite a lot of my trusted friends and family know about it. Of course I end up limiting what I write to ensure I don't step on anyone's toes. But a) I worry the more secret blog might still come to light, and b) I can't be bothered juggling two blogs.
All true. Thanks, guys. :-)
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