30 April 2008

So cute it makes my uterus hurt

Okay, so that saying is not mine. A friend in college would say that when she saw a cute baby or kid, and boy did I see a cute baby tonight. I finally met my friend's daughter who is about 2 months old. She has a cute little button nose and fell asleep on me for a little while and cried a bunch. Her Mommy kept trying to get her to stop merely because she did not want me to think the baby cries all the time. I pretty much have it figured out that babies just do that.

When I was going through my sewing kick a little while ago, I also made some baby clothes. This is what I brought the family tonight.I particularly like it because it is green and has sea animals all over it - my friend loves the Cape and the ocean and is not a girly-girl.

We also went out for ice cream. The daddy is a big fan of ice cream. I had coffee heath bar crunch YUM.

Thanks for the comments yesterday about the sciencey stuff. No need to try to understand it! I still have not figured it out quite yet, but Danielle mentioned my dilemma to her friend SeaQueen with whom I worked as a tech before SeaQueen went to grad school and she gave me some ideas today. We'll see how it goes...

29 April 2008

A PCR Primer (pun intended)

I apologize in advance for the science. If you are not in science, read this, and sorta think you get what I am talking about, let me know!! Or let me if there is one big confusing thing and maybe I can teach you something. :-) [I am going to assume you all know what a "gene" essentially is if you were to read that word in a newspaper. If not, you do not have to keep reading. If so, my hope is you can figure out why I am frustrated at least.]

I am trying to get some real-time reverse-transcriptase polymerase chain reaction experiments going on my project.

Anyone still with me?

That's qRT-PCR.

Essentially, I am just trying to figure out if I expose tadpoles to a chemical, which genes may change their level of expression. qRT-PCR lets me do that by magnifying any changes in gene expression after I dump the chemical on.

I have very convincing data that at least one gene in a certain class of genes is very significantly upregulated. That was using "old-fashioned" and less sensitive PCR methods that do not involve special methods. Now, because everyone wants to be so fancy, I have to use special methods. Plus, I was just accepted to the conference I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to go to. I would love new data, but also recognize that people there have not seen the other unpublished preliminary data I have, so worse comes to worse, I can ask advice at the conference.

Anyone still reading?

Here is your PCR Primer (in the teaching sense).

PCR involves changing temperatures cyclically to exponentially magnify the expression of a gene using a (c)DNA template. DNA has specific sequences of four chemical bases, and these specific sequences can be used to magnify the expression of only one gene from a pool of countless genes. You have to design "primers" (in the PCR sense) that will match the specific sequence of the gene or genes you are interested in and no other gene. The PCR primers I am using are in a scientific publication. When I checked the sequences, they do identify only the gene they are supposed to identify. (Sometimes there are typos in the published primer sequences, so you have to double check them.) The other supplies I am using are common to the machine I use that does the cycling temperatures. The different temperatures are all established, as these PCR primers are in a scientific publication.

I can not get the experiment to work.

I emailed the author of the scientific publication from which I got the PCR primer sequences and he gave me the information I requested. I have tried different PCR cycles and done all the double and triple checking I (and other grad students who use this PCR technique) can think of. I added what is called an "extension time" to the protocol that is not always used in this fancy shmancy technique. Even more curious, is that if I use these PCR primers in an old-fashioned PCR, they work BEAUTIFULLY. It is only when I try to get all fancy and stuff that they do not. I have a couple more options (increasing the amount of PCR primers, decreasing one of the temperatures in the PCR protocol) that I can try. qRT-PCR is EXPENSIVE to perform and my advisor has no grant money so I try to be conscientious.

Right now, I just need data though.

K. Sorry for the science. Have a good night.

Grrr...I hate it when I post and then am like, CRAP I forgot my main point.

MAIN POINT ------> When I was a research tech, a lot of stuff did not work and a lot of stuff got screwed up (by others, of course). Some of it was very fortuitous; other stuff was just crappy. When I started grad school, everything went pretty well. I thought maybe I had put in my time as a technician, as far as science frustration goes, for at least my tenure in grad school.

Apparently I was wrong.

28 April 2008

SCORE!

I just found my new favorite shoe store. I may be a bit biased because the woman said they just got a new shipment in. They had lots of navy dress sandals -- just what I needed for my friends' wedding!

So, I bought my first pair of shoes that comes with its own storage bag. They were only $60 retail, then the reduced price of the store. I feel all fancy though. I keep looking for a photo online, but to no avail. I could take a picture, but I am feeling lazy. You will have to trust me that they are great.

I also scored at Tar-jay. My brother sent me a gift card from the other coast for my birthday. I had been wanting a glass iced tea dispenser thing in which I could make sun tea and then use the little spigot in the fridge to pour. Tar-jay only has plastic ones. SO, I bought this AMAZING container for transporting cookies and brownies and stuff.Amazing, huh? I also got a cute new umbrella. My old one has been to Australia and China with me but has a big bleach spot and doesn't open all the way on its own. My new one is a little smaller and black with small different colored polka dots.

I also bought a sweater shaver, something I have wanted for a while.

In other scoring news, not too long ago, Spark gave me this:I kept not posting about it and not posting about it until I NEEDED something to post about. But, if you do not realize already, I am full of "it" and always manage to write something. So thanks, Spark! Hope you did not think I missed it. My Mom always told me to say thanks. :-)

I am still on my shopping high. Lots of deals; lots of stuff I had been wanting. Here are some other great things from the weekend.

My friend and I at our friend's wedding.Contra dancing in the room where the ceremony had been earlier.
That is the groom in the white tunic untucked and dark jeans. Did I mention it was a fairly casual wedding? People had changed into their jeans at this point, but it was still pretty low-key. I hesitate to put a bunch of people-pictures up, so this is what you will get. :-)

See, I can not stop smiling!!!

UPDATE (in case you managed to read the post in the 20 minutes before I updated it). SCORE! number three. I love this new post over at Sarcastic Mom. This is not a SCORE! in an exciting, I-just-found-a-deal kind of way. It is more of a this-is-so-poetic-and-beautiful kind of way.

27 April 2008

AHHHH!!!!

I have had about 40 or 50 "returned" emails today. The message contents are about cheap drugs and stuff like that.

Someone somehow is using my college alumni email address to spam people.

It has my full name, first and last?!

I just had it removed from the alumni directory.

I think I will also remove all my applications on Facebook.

I can not think of another place I use the email address!

Anyone ever have this happen to them?????

26 April 2008

I take it as a challenge

I had the privilege of spending about 10 hours celebrating a friend's marriage today. She and I started grad school the same time. There was a good contingency from our department and it was a lot of fun.

The challenge I mention in the title has nothing to do with graduate school.

The challenge will be having a wedding that so perfectly represents my and my future partner's relationship as the one I went to today represented my friend and her now husband (twice over...they have already been married in Africa, but today was the wedding that will be recognized world-wide and next year a reception in Germany...).

There was a perfect introduction of the couple by the minister; there was a friend playing trumpet; there were two sisters as flower girls, one helping the other to empty her basket of flowers; there were daffodils the bride planted last fall to use at her wedding; there were tents set up for those who were staying overnight at the house they rented; there was contradancing.

There was this great path to the house. We will say it represents the journey they have just embarked on together.

25 April 2008

Easy to forget

A lot of days, I get home "late" (which for me is 9:00 or 9:30 p.m.) and just want to have a drink (of water, wine or beer, depending on the day) and go to bed. Then I think about how I have "committed" to posting every day. In reality there are a lot of people, I think, who use Blog365 as motivation to just blog in general. Me, though, I do not like to "fail". So, sometimes, and frequently recently, I tend to be like "so this was my day and this was why it was great or this why why it sucked." Yes, I just wrote the word "like". Plus, I apologize that more frequently than not I write as though my life sucks more than it is great.

This is for two reasons. One, grad school sucks, generally speaking. Two, blogging is a way to vent.

K. That is my randomness for the day. My funny/interesting encounters for the day?

We had our grad school awards tonight. I did not receive one. This sucks. I am about to make myself more eminently more googleable, but I do not care. As president of the grad student council, FOR TWO TERMS, you would think I would get the award for Graduate Student Leadership, but no. Grrr...

I think I mentioned this a while back, but can not locate the post to link to. Aside from my ex being a complete and utter ass, there is only one other guy up with whom I was matched on eHarmony (although I do not think I have named it before, maybe at a later date I will post about why that was a bad decision for online dating services for me) who I knew. We had taken an ethics non-credit course together. He was at the awards ceremony tonight. Wicked cool. He talked to his friends; I talked to my friends and administrators who I know. I realized I had just presented awards in front of him; we pretended not to know each other. Grad school is really just like high school only you are 28 (or 29 in my case) instead of 18. Good times.

Speaking of good times, after the awards, there were appetizers and alcohol. Two glasses of wine later, most people had left except for two of my male grad student friends. One of them I recently dreamed about, the other may also have/had a crush on me. [I can not find the exchange I posted about on that second one. Apparently I am really bad at indexing this stuff!!!] The one about whom I dreamed and I frequently flirt. This time for example, and today he was looking for my lab mate. I told him she was not in...but I was there. To which he responded, "Yes. And you are looking radiant today." The three of us hung out for a couple of more hours. They are good people. I would make out with either of them. ;-) Especially because I had had a couple of glasses of wine and then the three of us had another drink.

Also because I wonder if it is truly possible to be friends with someone of the sex to whom you are attracted and never have a moment in which you want to kiss them. If you are close enough to feel like friends, is it such a stretch to want to kiss? If you are married or in a committed relationship, it is likely easier to pretend the thought never crossed you mind. As a single woman hanging out with two single guys, it makes sense.

Off to bed...and then a wedding tomorrow...the first in my year of 5 weddings.

24 April 2008

When no one else is around

Have you seen August Rush? I think it is a great movie. This exchange jumped out at me:
Lila, when are you going to let yourself be happy again?

I am happy!

I'm talking about when everyone else goes home.
It also reminded me of one of the daily quotes I get that I mentioned the other day:
Happiness is never stopping to think if you are.
See, stuff like this gets me thinking. I am happy and am generally positive now. I am being more assertive, getting what I want a lot of the time:-), and feeling pretty good about life.

It is when I am alone and stop to think about whether or not I am happy that I am not so happy. I try not to dwell on the less happy stuff.

Sometimes I wonder why exactly I am still going through life "alone" (in the not-having-a-partner sense). Then I think that I am not always an easy person to be around. But I know plenty of other people who are not always easy to be around and they have partners. And then I know I am also being silly and that any guy would be lucky to be with me (and presumably vice versa). But then I come full circle and wonder if that were really true, why I do not have said-guy.

Sometimes I wonder how I ended up in a difficult position with my advisor. Some of you out there may be able to attest to the fact that I have worked for somewhat difficult people in the past ([ahem], no need to identify yourself or if you agree with that statement). Those past situations were all do-able (in the sense of I was not unhappy, not in the sense of how I refer to attractive famous men as do-able). I try to rationalize that mentor-mentee relationships are not always good, my previous experiences were employer-employee.

What do I learn from these quotes and these internal conversations? Never be alone or stop to think if I am happy.

23 April 2008

Starting to get the hang of being more assertive

Well, I am starting to get the hang of being assertive. To a certain extent, this is paying off. It did not help me get a couple of grants, but with regards to my immediate surroundings and program, it is paying off a bit.

There is a conference, for instance I want to go to, and a new "teaching pedagogy" course this fall in my department that I do not want to take. [I put that in quotes because my advisor is involved in the teaching of the course and I am not a fan of her teaching style.] I got a summary of my last committee meeting and there were two surprises, although in reality I am not surprised they were there.

The research meeting. My meeting summary claims that it is expensive and may not be relevant to my research. It is on a topic I find VERY interesting, but I think my advisor is still bitter that my interests, so far, are more aligned with the research I did as a technician and not hers. To be fair (to me), what I work on now, in my advisor's lab, is more closely aligned with my research as a tech than her interests and she is the one who started the project, but whatever. She has no money; I want to go to a conference that costs a lot of money. I want to look for money; she argues that the conference is not relevant. I argue it is relevant and show her a famous guy who will be there who I want to meet. I get to apply. I win! I win! Apparently I am more stubborn than my advisor.

The course. It is supposed to help the first years teach the introductory biology labs. I taught on my own in a foreign country with no teaching pedagogy training and did a darn good job, if I do say so myself. I can be quite demanding and find that not all students appreciate me not just giving them the answers. Not my problem. Anyway, in year five of a PhD program, I do not want to take a course on teaching pedagogy from someone whose teaching style I do not like. I told the department chair as much. She was actually a little happy to hear that because another professor had requested me as his TA and this may make it easier for the department chair to put me on a TA my advisor would rather not have me on. I win! I win! Apparently it does not pay for my advisor to claim I am interested in this course or that my "committee" (i.e. just my advisor) thinks this course would be good on my CV.

The catch. I just got accepted to a week long course in MONTANA. I TOTALLY WANT TO GO TO MONTANA. The catch is that it also involves a 3-credit fall correspondence course online and I just finished making the argument that this "teaching pedagogy" course would be useless to me. For the record, this Montana course is all expenses paid and I think it would really help me communicate science to the public, as is its intent.

I guess this will just be another fight to put up. If I get travel money for the conference, in addition to being accepted to this course, all those rejected grants will (almost) be forgotten.

I also have to be careful with how many times I say "I win! I win!" :-)

22 April 2008

Things I did today

Went to the gym after a 5-day hiatus. Oiy.

Drank about 4 liters of water. I always drink more when I bring a bigger water bottle to work! I do not understand why my eyes are dry right now.

Accomplished little to no science.

Forgot my cell phone at home. After 15 hours away from home, the only thing I had was a text message from the EX. HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL HIM I DO NOT WANT TO PAY FOR HIM TO TEXT ME?!?! Especially from a Red Sox game. That's just mean.

Helped clean up after an undergrad in the lab went off to practice and forgot she was filling a carboy and it overflowed and went into the lab downstairs.'

Tried to find a balance between being responsible for our animal facility and making the department manager and my advisor take care of it. Seriously, if I were PI, I would just do it. As a grad student, I don't know who to call for an emergency water situation in the frog room, nor do I have any account information they would require to make said service call. [The frogs are fine, we are just currently unable to do the partial water changes that keep the algae down in the frog room.]

Found out one of the Fulbright applicants I worked with GOT THE FELLOWSHIP! I CAN make a positive impact on people's lives?!

Tutored a bunch.

Met with a dean for 1 1/2 hours. It was productive. I think we are on the same page for some stuff now. Other stuff? Well, what she does not see will not hurt her. If she does not want big flower arrangements, the graduate student group will just send them to the award recipients! :)

Came home and ate two cookies.

Now I need to empty the dishwasher. Who likes to empty the dishwasher when they get home at 9:15?!

21 April 2008

I love your colored printers!

While over 25,000 people were doing this:
including Lance Armstrong (in yellow on the right)!I was eating this:
That is a deep-fried turkey people, and it is not even Thanksgiving. YUM.

It was fun cheering people on and seeing exhausted people smile, or people who were walking start running again in response. Having done a 50-mile (3-day) fundraising walk, I totally understand what physical exhaustion means and how uplifting it is to have people cheering you on. If you ever run a marathon, write your name in large visible letters so that people who do not know you can cheer for you! Otherwise the following takes place:

KHC's friend: GO H.P.! I LOVE YOUR COLORED PRINTERS!
H.P.-sponsored runner: {smile and thumbs up}

20 April 2008

Here's hopin'!

I forget the exact line that really stuck out from the movie, but it was something like:
Someday you find someone who thinks the sun always shines out'your ass.
I just capped off my night at home with my roommate and Juno (thanks, KHC!). I have to rest up to watch people run 26 miles.

P.S. Sorry if I usually visit your blog but haven't in several days. I am trying to get back on schedule and caught up...eventually.

19 April 2008

Must be spring!

Lots of things make me think the few days of spring in the are are here. Once spring comes, summer is usually a few days behind. It's a fast transition. It was in the 70s today and I definitely got a sunburn on my arms playing outside with a bunch of 4-year olds. The trees had small buds a couple of days ago and are all leafing out now. Daffodils and tulips abound. Easter was weeks ago, but Passover starts tonight.

My niece's birthday party was great. My sister loves decorating cakes (and made every part of the cake decorations in the following pictures). This year's (It is from the back, so those flowers sticking out have yellow centers):Last year's:Mine and my niece's a couple of years ago.
For my nephew my sister has made a campfire cake, a Finding Nemo cake, and I do not remember what else.

I just got home from my first Passover Seder ever. It was great! I particularly liked one of the reading my friend put at the end of the Haggadah by Joy Lovitt. I can frequently find something that speaks to me in whatever religious ceremony I am at (such as Catholic Mass with various friends over the years). This one was talking about finding the "missing" (i.e. hidden) piece of matzo when you are a child and you have lots of adults coaching you on where to look but as you get older, you no longer have as many coaches and you need to look on your own, etc. I would totally go to another Seder. :) Happy Passover!

[In a completely unrelated note, my parents had an old ergonomic keyboard that I am using now because my old one crapped out on me, thanks to a bit of spilled wine I think. This inherited one is great!]

18 April 2008

A whirlwind weekend!

Tonight starts a very busy weekend to which I referred a while back. Hopefully I will have some photographic evidence of all the fun I will have.

Tonight? Fondue and wine restaurant!
Tomorrow? 4-year old's birthday party (i.e. my niece's with whom I share my birthday) and my first Seder ever.
Sunday? Bridal shower and an evening at home.
Monday? Boston Marathon party. At least it will be warm and sunny this year!

I will leave you with the Daily Inspirational Though I received today in my email (and from a couple of days ago). Very appropriate as my office mates were just talking about how we could all make our office a little more positive. I feel really bad for one of the first years, as he said he is not sure if he is unhappy because it is grad school or unhappy because of the negativeness. :(
Happiness is never stopping to think if you are.

— Palmer Sondreal

17 April 2008

How to prevent a hangover

In college, Molly and I would get home from a night out, get cheese and crackers and a full Brita pitcher, and sit on one of our beds talking for an hour. I always think that it was the food and water that prevented us from feeling like crab the next day.

I still remember one night when Molly fell asleep mid-sentence, woke back up and continued the sentence. That was my indication it was time to put the water, cheese and crackers away and go to bed.

Last night I got home from going out (only about 10:30!) and had multiple brownies and a couple of glasses of water. I am only really tired today, rather than being tired and feeling crappy. :)

16 April 2008

365 days and counting...

...until the big 3-0!

I share my birthday with Kareem Abdul-Jabbar, Martin Lawrence, Selena, Henri Mancini, Charlie Chaplin, Wilbur Wright, and apparently the POPE!

Last night I got home to homemade brownies. YUM!

Tonight I'm celebrating with friends for some cheap tex-mex, margaritas and drinks afterwards.

Good times.

15 April 2008

Inspirational thoughts

I signed up for a daily inspirational thought. Here is one from a couple of days ago...
It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not. ~Anonymous

P.S. Happy [U.S.] tax day.

P.P.S. I brought a different keyboard home from work and my computer is just fine. My keyboard needs to be replaced though...I don't think I wrote about this, but I knocked some wine a couple of weeks ago and some got on my keyboard. It was not until this weekend when it started acting funny though. I would hit 'space' and the computer would get 'enter + space'. Hit '5' and get '45'. That's why when I first posted the other day, it said I was posting every day for 3645 days. SO not true. Need a new keyboard now.

14 April 2008

Fun and Games

Many newer games are along the same lines, as far as what you do and how you get points. Maybe it is because I have played a lot of games with cards? There is usually some sort of card prompt, players respond, and there is voting or guessing about the "right" one or the funny one.

Balderdash is the oldest game I remember that works this way. You're given a real word and everyone guesses/makes up a definition. Then everyone guesses which definition is right. You get points if you guess the right one, someone guesses yours, or yours is close to the real one.

Saturday I played Wise and Unwise at a game night. This one has cards with the start of an old saying. Everyone finishes the saying, they are read, and people say which they think is the real one. One of them was essentially "There is an old Jamaican saying, 'Fetch a pail of sand...'" KHC and I finished it with "...to keep a fire burning." You know, the sand protects the fire or holds the heat or something. The real ending? "...to make a rope." I think someone was smoking something when that old saying was written!

There's an old Maltese saying, "Malta would be a delightful place if..."

KHC and I wrote, "...the women never grew old." We got a vote for that one!

The real ending? "Malta would be a delightful place if...the priest all turned into trees."

Okay.

Other great games along these lines? Apples to Apples and The Game of Things (I haven't actually played it yet, but it looks fun!). I am also a fan of Taboo, Scattergories, another one that I played with Molly and her family, Outburst, and I am sure others I have played along the way.

I'm not actually a huge fan of games like Monopoly or Life. I get bored (no pun intended) before the game is even close to being over. Games like Chutes and Ladders and Candyland are good though. :)

Any favorite games out there?

13 April 2008

My 45 minutes of stardom

My nephew's kindergarten has a star of the week every week. A couple of months ago, my sister said she and my nephew were talking about who his special guest might be when it was his turn. He wanted his Aunt to come!! Last week, he was the star; Friday morning, I made my grand appearance.

I brought tadpoles that were all 2 months old, but some still looked like little fish, some are little froglets with tails, and some are froglets without tails. I also brought some 2-year old frogs and some adult females (an albino, per my nephew's request). My sister had told me that a lot of special guests are family dogs that visit for about 10 minutes before the kids are out of hand. We sat on the carpet and talked about the frogs for 45 minutes. My nephew's teacher asked how long I could stay because the kids' attention was so good. They also read his story while my sister and I were there. The book is pages saying "I like Jenski's Nephew because _________," and each student filled in the blank and drew a picture. Two of the little girls said they like him because he is cute. One girl drew a picture of her saying she wanted a kiss and my nephew saying "good grief!". Then the second teacher said that there were so many people who wanted to write "because he is cute" that she had to tell them to come up with something different. He is going to be that guy who everyone likes.

Anyway, my nephew also brought his microscope and slides, one of which was of a piece of tadpole that I had given him. Everyone took turns looking at the different age frogs and into the microscope. There were some good questions.

Do frogs blink? I had to think about that. Yes. Then it occurred to me that we blink to wet our eyes, and these frogs are fully aquatic so they do not need to blink as much. I told the kindergartners so, only I said they live in the water rather than they are fully aquatic. :)

Why do the small adult frogs come to the top of the water sometimes? To breath.

Why are there plants in the bucket with the small frogs? Because they like to hide under things. The adults are too big to put plants in with them, but in the frog room, they pile up on each other to hide.

When they grow, do the toes grow and then the webs grow in between? The toes and the webs grow at the same time, and if you look closely at the tadpoles growing legs, you can see little webs.

How do the adults shed their skin? (The adults were a little stressed about the car ride and had started shedding their skin.) They do it when they are scared or stressed and the skin just comes off. When they rub up against each other, that helps too.

My nephew told his classmates that he is a scientist too. One of them asked what makes him a scientist. I did not hear what he said, but his teacher explained that if you like to explore and do experiments and answer questions in a lab, then you are a scientist.

My sister had printed out pictures of my lab. My nephew pointed to the centrifuge and asked what it was. It is called a centrifuge and you put little tubes in it and it spins them really fast. I think one boy has a parent who works in a lab because he had seen one before.

When they were regrouping at one point and told to sit on a letter on the rug, one little girl said she wanted to sit next to me. Another little girl, and I could tell she's the quiet one, did not say more than two words to me, but sat so close she was leaning on me. SO CUTE.

As I left, I told my sister I w as totally going to put this on my CV. She said it was definitely an invited lecture. :)

I could totally hang out with 5 and 6 year-olds all day. The only problem would be that I would want them to learn so much more than they are ready to at that age. :) The teacher asked if I would still be in grad school when my niece is in kindergarten in two years. Although I hope I am not I would totally go back.

12 April 2008

Almost the nick of time

As I was driving home from a game night with KHC and Co., I was thinking about writing a review of games, like Apples to Apples, The Game of Things, The Wise and Unwise (played tonight), Balderdash, etc. They are all played in a similar manner, but with different themes.

That could be a boring post though.

Then I got home to an empty apartment and this from my roommate.How great! I get a birthday week extravaganza!
Thanks, Roomy. :)
It's 11:59, I have to post this...

11 April 2008

The ups and downs

I am my mother's daughter. She repeats stories; I repeat post titles. Like tonight's title seemed familiar, so I searched it and found it here. I've also used "What to do with my life?" HERE and HERE. Apparently these would have been better questions to use as titles for my blog, except for the fact that I still don't know where to start.

ANYWAY. It's "late", as far as I'm concerned, so this won't be long and drawn out. I went to kindergarten; it was great (I'll post questions I was asked and stories tomorrow). I had an interesting journal club discussion about turtles and how they navigate. A group of grad students went to ice cream after seminar. All good fun. Then I get home to another rejection letter for one of the grants to which I applied. Way to put me in a bad mood?! Why do rejections always arrive on Fridays?

Then I had dinner and hung out with my roommate and her boyfriend for 3 hours at the table with some drinks. Now I don't feel so crappy about the grant rejection and can appreciate the good things that happened in my day.

10 April 2008

So many things, so little time

In no particular order, here are probably the last few pictures of the game that I will post...I swear. Just be glad I am not posting all 107. :-)
Members of the Boston Pops.Bill Buckner.
Ortiz - check out my 16x zoom! :)
Steven Tyler singing God Bless America. He is a strange man...
Playing with my camera's color settings...
So what do people know about computers? I think I'll be looking into a laptop sooner than later. My keyboard is working fine now, but only after I let my computer do a system check on start up. Plus then there were two Windows errors right after startup. I am a little concerned. LUCKILY I just bought an 8gb flash drive (for $40 - I love a deal) and backed up all my photos. I do NOT want my computer to crash in the middle of writing my dissertation though!

I may have almost convinced my advisor to "let" me go to the meeting I want to go to. I went into her office today and said, "I know you're probably sick of me talking about the meeting, but guess who is going to be there???" A very well known researcher who works on the same chemical I do is going to be there. I really want to go now. I heard through the grape-vine that today was the deadline to get a travel award but I do not see it anywhere on the web site. If I can find the money, I can go. Cross your fingers!

Tomorrow I visit my nephew's kindergarten class. Hopefully I have cute stories! Last weekend, playing a game didn't provide as much cute kid quips as I had hoped. I tried playing The Game of Things with them, where there are cards with Thing prompts.
Things that are magic? My niece said that "if there is an empty cupboard and someone opens it and pulls a bunny out that was not in there before, but then there is a bunny, and they pull it out. THAT is magic."
Things that you forget? My nephew had a hard time remembering anything he forgets. He did finally say that sometimes he forgets to pick up his toys. Anyone surprised that a 6-year old forgets to pick up toys?

My sewing machine is ready to pick up from its cleaning. Then I'll finish a couple of projects. Then I'll show you everything I've sewn recently!

It was 70 degrees (F) here today! The second my roommate got home, we went and got ice cream. That was my dinner. Then I came home and had a beer. I need to be more careful about what I eat. I have lost nearly 10 pounds since December though, even though I have not really been watching what I eat!

If I tell enough random stories, maybe I can tag this post with EACH of the tags I have so far. That would be great. But I won't. And I will count this as a Jen story...or many Jen stories.

K, I have a lot I want to do before bed, so, um, that is all...

09 April 2008

This may be tricky

I just tried writing an email to my brother and sister and the keyboard was all weird. But it was also yahoo mail and that has been very sketchy the past couple of days.
Nope,A myl keyboardr isi doingg this.NOTCOOL.

Alright. Here are more great pictures of the game:Here's more about the committee meeting. I brought up things like outside committee members (I listed out a few possiblities), meetings I could go to (my advisor does not want me to go to one in particular, but I REALLY want to go), an outline of what I forsee going into my dissertation and progress on those chapters (one is done, YAY!), Now my keyboard is acting funny again so pictures are all you get.
:)
P.S. This is the 101st post for Blog365! :)

08 April 2008

5-0, 107

The Red Sox won 5-0 tonight, and I took 108 pictures. I maxed out my 4x optical/4x digital zooms and some of those photos are not half bad. Only about 10 of the photos were playing around. I am sure you will be subjected to a couple more here over the next couple of days.

My friend's parents were sitting next to Steven Tyler who sang God Bless America in the 8th inning. Her Dad also went over to say hi to a friend who was sitting next to Wes Welker and Matt Castle. This is my friend who brought me and her parents had two tickets over the Green Monster (the seats above where all these banners are), and we were, well, in left field (from where I took all these pictures). I should really hang out with this friend more. ;)

I will probably post about my committee meeting tomorrow. It was not good or bad. It was good because I said a lot about my intentions and goals to my committee so my advisor can not ignore them; it was bad because there is a conference I am really going to fight my advisor to go to. Oh, well.

Go Sox! :)

07 April 2008

"Boring" day

Well, today I skipped the gym, went to work, did some work, listened to a job talk, went to a meeting, went to another meeting, came home. Exciting, huh?

Wanna know something that actually is exciting? Tomorrow morning I have a committee meeting to talk about my future...or just stuff like whether my timeline is realistic, meetings I would like to go to, potential outside committee members, etc. THEN, immediately after my committee meeting, I need to RUSH home to go here:...for a ring ceremony and opening day.

NOW THAT IS EXCITING!

06 April 2008

Two for one!

I like a good deal. For example, with a 2-for-1 plus a coupon, I bought some new mousse and hairspray that normally would have been about $14 for $3.50 last week. I can find a good sale.

Tonight I got two good cries in one night! What a deal. Normally I would just watch Home Makeover Extreme Edition, get a feel-good cry in before the week starts, and go to bed wondering why I am not doing something more good with my life. I was watching my niece and nephew last night, so I missed out on a semi-regular movie-night with my roommate and her boyfriend. Last weekend we watched No Reservations because August Rush was out. Last night they watched August Rush and then did not return it so I could watch it.

I started August Rush, then watched the first 10 minutes of Extreme Home Makeover, then watched more August Rush, then the last 10 minutes of EHM, then the end of August Rush. If you have not watched either, you should watch both. I cried several times throughout the evening.

I think I will buy August Rush. My roommate said if you love music, you would especially love the movie, and I can totally see that. It was amazing. I would totally do Jonathan Rhys Meyers and his accent. Freddie Highmore was amazing. I have always had reservations about Keri Russell, and I would not say I love her, but she was almost perfect for her part. Have you seen it? No? YOU MUST!

I also need to set up a Juno date with KHC and her BF. I hear it is a good movie. They would both watch it again. :)

05 April 2008

What to do with my life?

There will probably be a lot of posts about what the heck I am going to do with my life in the next year. I now realize I should start looking for a post-doc, oh, now. One year before I will actually need that position. That's fine. It will give me something to do online at night instead of watching TV online. :)

I will also probably start writing bits and pieces of the introduction to my dissertation. We had an invited speaker yesterday, and it was the first time I have met individually with an invited speaker. He was a nice guy, the big piece of advice I got was that it is a good idea to start your intro about a year ahead of time. By your fourth and fifth years in a bio PhD program, the basic background you will need to present is not likely to change; the introduction is the least interesting to write, as it is just putting literature together not analyzing your own experiments; and it is never bad to have something written! I told my advisor this advice. She said she would rather me start writing the introduction to my next paper. Whatever. That is sorta hard to do if I do not have more data ready to go.

I should think about where I want to be for my post-doc (probably the northeast or Oregon, where my brother is now), and whether I want to primarily teach or teach and run a lab. I had a heart-to-heart with an undergrad in my lab the other day. I almost made him cry. It was a mix of pep talk and getting him to realize that some of what is happening was preventable and he will have to think ahead in grad school. I felt better knowing someone had talked to him about how the semester went, but he is writing a senior thesis and our advisor should have also been more proactive. My point is that I can not imagine letting a situation get to where that one got, and that makes me want to run my own lab purely to provide a good learning environment for undergrads and grads.

At the same time, I do not want to fight tooth and nail to fund a research program. My teeth and nails are valuable to me. Losing a few (but not all) hairs would be okay because that keeps you going. I do not want to "waste" my time endlessly applying to grants with no money coming in. The funding environment sucks. Period. This makes me want to skip the whole running a lab thing and really focus on being an effective instructor. I will also likely do a post-doc anyway to see if training in a different lab will help me with regards to grant writing and money getting.

Luckily I have some friends who are ahead of me in the game. Within similar fields, I now know people looking at running their own lab and teaching, focusing on teaching, and going into biotech. If that includes you, you better watch out because I'll be coming for advice. ;)

K. Back to TLC. I am watching my niece and nephew. They are in bed (and maybe asleep, but I doubt it), and the family has cable. I am slightly addicted to home makeover shows and have to get my fix in while I am here! Their friend's dog is here so I can get my canine fix too.

04 April 2008

Catchin' up.

Well, I have me my wireless back. Thank goodness.

I actually got to thinking about daily habits while my wireless was out. I used to watch a not too excessive amount of TV. Then my ex had TiVO, and that certainly increases the amount of TV one watches. Then we broke up and I did not have cable or internet, so it was back to network stations. I still had a fair amount of regular shows to watch though. Then I started the online dating thing and retelling my stories got a little old. We started chipping in for the wireless upstairs and I started this blog so I could reduce the number of times I (knowingly) retold the dating stories. [I have a habit of retelling stories - a quality I inherited from my mom.] Then the writer's strike and my busy schedule. Then Blog365. Then? WIRELESS OUTAGE. NO TV. NO INTERNET. TRYING HARD TO RESIST BLOGGING AT WORK. It was only for a couple of days. Enough to test me I suppose. So I am generally out of the habit of watching TV (except Home Makeover Extreme Edition), and into the habit of sitting on my computer at night. I do not know if I will get back into Scrubs and ER and whatever else, but I can always just watch them online while I sit at my computer at night. :)

Anyhoo. That's the past couple years of my TV and internet habits, in case you wondered. So after deciding to run about half of the errands I want to do this weekend tonight, I am home catching up on all the wonderful posts that have been put up since the wireless was out. If you are getting a bunch of comments from me all at once, that is why. Thanks for posting so I had something to do while I drank my wine. ;)

03 April 2008

Why I'm single?

One of my office mates has a cute saying on her desk: You're single because you use emoticons.

I use a lot of smiley faces with online communications, because it is often difficult to determine what someone's intention is by typed words. Email miscommunication has gotten me into trouble before. I can not think of an exact example, but I remember it happening. I particularly like it, in yahoo for instance, when there is a drop-down menu I can chose a face from. Then I do not have to remember how to type it.

The ones I usually use are: :) ;) :p ;p :D

I guess I usually want someone to realize I am joking or giving them a hard time.

I am not sure this explains why I am single.

02 April 2008

What do I get myself into?

As I mentioned yesterday, my internet at home is a little funky (as in we give money to the couple upstairs, they provide us with wireless, and it is not working right now). So you get a brief glimpse at the kind of stuff I get myself into through the grad student council...

In, oh, 5 minutes I am supposed to be at a pre-dinner reception.

Then a dinner.

Then a lecture.

Then a post-lecture reception.

The topic? Byzantanium and Armenian art. I am a biologist. I can look at art and wonder how anyone can produce it. In general, I would say that I hate history. This will be rough. Never mind that I am supposed to introduce this woman. Twice. At dinner and the lecture.

I like biology. Like labs and experiments and data, when I'm lucky. I am lucky tonight though - lots of free food and really that is what grad students are in this for.

01 April 2008

My kind of quiz!

[Sadly, my internet at home is funky. This should be interesting when I want to post!]

Spark had this quiz up the other day. In addition to finding online quizzes slightly addictive, I particularly liked how some of the questions were asked. It is like my long-lost twin wrote them...or one of my other personas.

One of the questions was, "Do you keep a to-do list? (tasks, not people)" [See my #52 here.]

THEN it said if you have STDs to click on a link...that takes you to match-dot-com. [NOTE: I did not contract any STDs while partaking in online dating.]

This was my kind of quiz! Here are my results.

The Maid of Honor

Deliberate Gentle Love Master (DGLM)


Appreciated for your kindness and envied for all your experience, you are The Maid of Honor.

Charismatic, affectionate, and terrific in relationships, you are what many guys would call a "perfect catch"--and you probably have many admirers, each wishing to capture your long-term love. You're careful, extra careful, because the last thing you want is to hurt anyone. Especially some poor boy whose only crime was liking you.

We've deduced you're fully capable of a dirty fling, but you do feel that post-coital attachment after hooking up. So, conscientious person that you are, you do your best to reserve physical affection for those you respect...so you can respect yourself.

Your biggest negative is the byproduct of your careful nature: indecision. You're just as slow rejecting someone as you are accepting them.

Your exact female opposite:

Half-Cocked

Random Brutal Sex Dreamer

Always avoid: The False Messiah (DBLM), The 5-Night Stand (DBSM), The Vapor Trail (RBLM), The Bachelor (DGSM)

Consider: The Gentleman (DGLM), someone just like you.

Link: The Online Dating Persona Test | OkCupid - free online dating | Dating