Easy to forget

A lot of days, I get home "late" (which for me is 9:00 or 9:30 p.m.) and just want to have a drink (of water, wine or beer, depending on the day) and go to bed. Then I think about how I have "committed" to posting every day. In reality there are a lot of people, I think, who use Blog365 as motivation to just blog in general. Me, though, I do not like to "fail". So, sometimes, and frequently recently, I tend to be like "so this was my day and this was why it was great or this why why it sucked." Yes, I just wrote the word "like". Plus, I apologize that more frequently than not I write as though my life sucks more than it is great.

This is for two reasons. One, grad school sucks, generally speaking. Two, blogging is a way to vent.

K. That is my randomness for the day. My funny/interesting encounters for the day?

We had our grad school awards tonight. I did not receive one. This sucks. I am about to make myself more eminently more googleable, but I do not care. As president of the grad student council, FOR TWO TERMS, you would think I would get the award for Graduate Student Leadership, but no. Grrr...

I think I mentioned this a while back, but can not locate the post to link to. Aside from my ex being a complete and utter ass, there is only one other guy up with whom I was matched on eHarmony (although I do not think I have named it before, maybe at a later date I will post about why that was a bad decision for online dating services for me) who I knew. We had taken an ethics non-credit course together. He was at the awards ceremony tonight. Wicked cool. He talked to his friends; I talked to my friends and administrators who I know. I realized I had just presented awards in front of him; we pretended not to know each other. Grad school is really just like high school only you are 28 (or 29 in my case) instead of 18. Good times.

Speaking of good times, after the awards, there were appetizers and alcohol. Two glasses of wine later, most people had left except for two of my male grad student friends. One of them I recently dreamed about, the other may also have/had a crush on me. [I can not find the exchange I posted about on that second one. Apparently I am really bad at indexing this stuff!!!] The one about whom I dreamed and I frequently flirt. This time for example, and today he was looking for my lab mate. I told him she was not in...but I was there. To which he responded, "Yes. And you are looking radiant today." The three of us hung out for a couple of more hours. They are good people. I would make out with either of them. ;-) Especially because I had had a couple of glasses of wine and then the three of us had another drink.

Also because I wonder if it is truly possible to be friends with someone of the sex to whom you are attracted and never have a moment in which you want to kiss them. If you are close enough to feel like friends, is it such a stretch to want to kiss? If you are married or in a committed relationship, it is likely easier to pretend the thought never crossed you mind. As a single woman hanging out with two single guys, it makes sense.

Off to bed...and then a wedding tomorrow...the first in my year of 5 weddings.