Unfortunate

There are two things that are unfortunate.

The first is that I really do like science. Why is that unfortunate? I don't know - there is truly that part of me that wishes I would be able to walk away from the PhD if I needed to. But I won't. [As an aside, I did speak with my advisor today for over an hour and tried my best not to cry, but certainly teared up. The only other time I came that close in front of her was when I told her I was going to have thyroid surgery.][An aside to my aside - last week was the 2 year anniversary of my thyroid surgery. I don't really miss it.] I was productive after my meeting, but frustrated by her rules and the possibility that I won't be done this summer, as hard as I may try to be. I'll push like crazy, but you never know. So I am at the microscope taking pictures, and there is this cool part of what I work on that for some reason just struck me. And I re-realized I like science. Like I find random sciency things cool. I'm such a dork. I even took a close up of this thing and sent it to my friend who teaches 7th grade life science and suggested she play 20 questions with it to see if the students can guess what it is. [I am totally going to play science 20 questions someday when I am teaching.]

So the second unfortunate thing is that I forgot to transfer that picture from the lab computer to my computer. Tomorrow, prepare to be amazed when I get to school and post it.