I realized a few weeks ago that I am generally unimpressed with my life as it currently is. Not in a horrible way, just in a I-don't-know-where-I-thought-I-would-be-now-but-this-doesn't-seem-like-IT. In other words, another post title I considered was, "Meh".
If I think of the things I have done, things I have seen, they are interesting, worthwhile, and some impressive in themselves I suppose.
Then I think about how the sum of them got me to this point eating left-over (Annie's) mac n' cheese (with bacon, basil, and spinach) on my couch with my cat, only to try to get up the motivation to pay my bills and read the paper for lab meeting and work on my grant revisions and probably go to bed later than I should only to get up tomorrow and listen to NPR and/or country music on my way to another 11 hour day inside where my eyes get really dry because my desk is under a vent and complain about what the undergrads do (and mostly don't) do and...Yeah. Unimpressed.
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You are a grown-up, this is what we do. It's not all it's cracked up to be, involves little glamour, hard work, and not a lot of excitement when you have to spend large parts of your time working and taking care of your responsibilities. I'm guessing most other "grown-ups" will confirm this for me, whether they are single, married, have kids, no kids, but you basically just described being a responsible adult who works full-time at a steady job that doesn't involve a lot of excitement or travel to change it up. Sorry to break it to you, but you should be happy and proud to have reached a stable point in life that you worked hard for, not 'meh' about it!!
I get all that, Aim. I'm not naive. But the thing is, my life isn't all that stable or secure.
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